So we've decided to move to Arizona and I am SOOOO excited! We are going to be happy there I can just tell. But my anxiety is creeping in.
I am so stressed about finding a house that Dylan, Jer, DZ, and I can all fit in that we can afford, especially because our credit SUCKS. I am so nervous about housing and money right now.
I am also freaking out because we have a child. I want to have a decent pediatrician lined up, along with a decent preschool. How do you know this stuff if you don't even live in the state? One thing is for certain, and that is that my son LOVES school, and even though he's only (almost) 4, part-time isn't cutting it. I need to find a good full-time preschool for him to go to.
I'm not so worried about the other stuff. Dylan and I can find doctors and dentists and stuff when we get there. But a good doctor and school for DZ are a must. And housing. I'm terrified that we're going to make this move and have no resources and be left high and dry while I investigate our various decisions.
I wish I could jump into this move whole-heartedly but I just can't. There's too many unanswered questions. I need to make sure certain things are lined up before we just go. A part of me, admittedly a big part, wants to just jump and in hope for the best. Just keep swimming and all that... But that's not in my nature. I get too anxious and I need to figure some things out first.
So next up is a trip out to Phoenix, so I can do my "research". I need to see where I'm headed. I have no doubt that I'll love it. But it's so hard to jump in with both feet when you're 2500 miles away from home. Dramatic, maybe. But that's me.
